Today has been ugh, for lack of better words. Jackson being gone was on my mind ALL day. I mean, i know he's gone every day, but it didn't seem to leave my thoughts all day. I guess with another school year about to start, and my birthday coming up made me think about yet another thing he's missing. He missed last yr being in california for training. I told Ally daddy should be home for kindergarten graduation, and she was SO excited. It breaks my heart thinking about all the things the kids miss with jackson being gone, and all the things he misses with the kids. You would think i'd be used to it, but im not. Especially with Ally being older now. She loves her daddy so much. (so does jordan)

We picked up a few more school supplies today. Crazy that im going to have a kindergartner and a middle schooler in a couple weeks. Since Jordan is so tall for his age, i am having to by him men's sizes! Of course, thats more money to spend on shoes, shirts, etc. Cant believe how big he's getting. I dont know what i'll do with myself since Ally will be in school all day this year.

Well, thats been my day and now its well past time for it to end. good night