I've always been a peacemaker in confrontational situations. I guess being the middle child does that to you. I have been a very sensitive person since i can remember. when i was younger, things could hurt me, and noone would know because i kept it to myself. I could lock my feelings up inside and noone would ever know i was pissed off, or hurt. I would act like a bitch and be tough as a defense mechanism. Since i've had my youngest, im not like that.

I still try to be the peacemaker, not because i want to but because it's who i am. I still lock certain things up, but its not so easy for me to keep it to myself. Im VERY sensitive, and i get my feelings hurt really easily. Always have. Now, its not so easy for me not to let it show. I wear my heart on my sleeve, and it usually shows on my face when im hurt. Sometimes, it feels like a physical hurt depending on who hurt my feelings and what the situation was. People i think im closer to, seem to hurt the most.

Sometimes i wish that i could let things roll off my back and not let things get to me, but its hard.